I have gotten better... i've dealt with my 'issue', learned forgivness (it was kindof a hard lesson) and moved on. Now, i'm happier than i've been in a while, and i have Jckfrst and my friends, Youkai-No-Rei... they helped me. Where they found the patience i'll never know.
Now.. i've started revolutionizing myself, trading my old hackneyed habits for something new, better. All this was inspired by a man named... 'VOLTAIRE'. I think i would have arrived at this conclusion myself eventually, i suppose he just hurried it along, and i'm not complaining. I used to be very... not peppy, but CHEERY all the time. In a naive` sort of way. It was a nice way to be, trusting everything and taking people at their words, but i had to grow up sometime.
I've changed a lot of things, my personality, my outlook, and most recently, my appearance. I'm no longer a Strawberry blonde (i have been that for about a year), no i have light brown red hair, but with substaitial blue stripes going all over my wonderful cranium!
I have always rebelled as being classified in one particular genre of person... Hippie, Goth, Prep, whathaveyou... but i've always known that i wouldn't just jump right into something and blend in, it's just not my style.
I have re-evaluated myself, and i have concluded...
I am a
BOHEMIAN-GOTHIC-RENAISSANCE-GYPSY-PIRATICAL-INTELLECTUAL

Does that make any sense? God i hope so. Because, people who know me... i've changed. In a big way, inside and out. I don't do anything normal, and i've taken the first of many steps towards becoming an adult... cool, huh?